Soo I’ve fallen in love with Tumblr ! lol People always tell me it’s not good to hold your feelings in and to express your emotions some kind of way. So this is my way of expressing myself. I must admit it has made me feel better too. My past few posts have been on some heartbreak ish but that’s not how I usually am! I’ve just been going through. Anyways, this is my newfound diary ! 👍
I miss YOU. I miss the way you talked to me on the phone. I miss the emoji texts and fights. I miss your laugh and your corny ass jokes. The way you talked to me like you owned me, made me feel like I was the only one gave me butterflies. Every time you called me babe, baby, or just bae changed my entire mood, forcing me to call you that back. I miss the promises that we made to each other. I miss listening to your problems,me looking for the right thing to say and making you feel better. I miss the way you would get mad at me if I was playing 2k because you didn’t have my undivided attention. I gave it to anyway. I miss the way you used to get jealous if I ever looked at another person as if I wanted them, then made me sweet talk you and reassure you that you were my baby. I miss the pictures you sent me, the face times, and falling asleep on the phone. I miss your sexy ass sleepy voice that gave me chills down my spine. I miss you blowing up my phone with 15+ messages if I didn’t respond soon enough. I miss how you would text me saying you miss me and wanted me to rush home so you could call me. I rushed home too. I miss the nicknames and name calling, the looks. Baby I’m sorry if I sound clingy right now, but…you did this to me in some sort of way. And now that I see you hugging other people, telling them to call you, it just reminds me of the same way you did me. Yes, I’m the jealous type, a bit more than the normal..Im also possessive, so what’s mine is mine.. every person that you hug, talk to, or even play with in some friendly way makes my blood boil and changes my mood for the rest of the day. Hydrocodone becomes my bestfriend to deal with the pain that you’re putting me through. I’ve been hurting like this for the past two weeks and you don’t even know it. Even though I tell you that I miss you and I want you back, you just brush it off and carry on with life. I wish I knew how to move on like you did. I guess that’s just a message to me saying it was meaningless in the first place.💌💔
the worst part about mental illness is that everyone eventually gets sick of your problem and stops caring about it completely
or just thinks your faking it the whole time…
or starts to act like it’s their problem too
Congratulations.
You were the only thing that made me happy, you left me without warning…I still want you back though, but I don’t want to go through what you’ve already put me through.. I wanted you more than anything.. I shut out the world because you consumed my whole mind..I wonder if you felt the same, I doubt it though because when I love, I love hard.. I always said if you’re happy then I’m happy..it’s still true, I just wish that I could have been the one making you happy. On the outside, I’m done with you. Internally, you’re still ALL I think about and I miss you more and more. Never in a million years would I think I would let someone do this to me, but you did it..congratulations 💌💔
